A Whole Week!

Greetings Interweb World!

Today was my third day of working out, with my new routine in the gym! I felt wonderful after lifting and jogging on the treadmill, and then to finish off I did some stair stepping. The stairs always kill me. But I like to end with a bang.

My weight today was 199, again. But thinking back to my appointment with the personal trainer, she did mention something about not paying attention to the scale anymore, since I was starting to do weight training. I believe she said that because I was building muscle, and muscle is extremely dense and heavy, I was going to start gaining weight with the new addition of muscle; however, I would start to lose inches off my body. I love the idea of Losing Inches. Love Love Love. So, since I'm still doing cardio along with lifting, I will continue to keep track of my weight, but people... Don't judge me by the number on the screen!


My eating is still a little wacky, though. Technically... the holidays aren't over until the second of January, and until then I will keep blaming the celebratory goods and meals out with family for my over-eating.

I can't wait to go back to school to a normal schedule and normal eating habits with lots of healthy choices. Strangely enough, school has more food variety ergo more choices to eat healthy-- which I am looking forward to!

But, ending this week will be nice. Ending a year, and ending with my first actual attempts to lose weight, using my new exercises! But... the year will not close off all I've begun; for this is only the beginning of my long journey.

Here's to the New Year and hopefully to all the Change (for the good) that will come from it!

Cheers,
Rose.

yes, I have an abundance of stuffed animals in the background.

The Seriousness Begins

I woke up this morning with a thirst for exercise! First time since I have been home.

So, I got out of bed (by noon mind you), put on my exercise clothes, and got ready to go.

I felt the need to weight myself first and get a gauge of where I was. My weight: 199...

Well... I'm certainly not making progress...

And now it is truth time---- During the holidays I always have a love affair-- with Green Bean Casserole.
So, I haven't lost any weight because I haven't been mindful of my food consumption. That is the worst part for me. Motivating myself to not eat a second helping, or putting healthier things on my plate. I need to lower my snacking, also.

Now that the holidays are slowing down, I feel like I can start making real progress; but I am happy with myself for starting a gym program and going more in the last two weeks than I did all last semester at school.

But now I'm off to work out, and feel the burn!

I hope you all have a wonderful day,
Rose.

It was the Holidays... Give me a break

So... Yesterday and Today I might have tried to forget I had blog... But I did have an appointment with a personal trainer this morning! We went over machine weights and set up a routine for me. I'm so excited!

One of the biggest problems I had with going to the gym, is I never knew what to do! I only knew how to work the Elliptical and that gets wayyy boring after 30 mins (if I even made it that long). I had always been interested in weight lifting though. I haven't been able to do a push-up since Middle School and I feel like a weak-ling all the time... but I was always afraid to try them on my own. At school I didn't want to look like a dork trying to read each machine and figure it all out on my own. So I never tried and just stuck to my boring routine of walking/jogging on the track and working the Ellipticals. BUT NOW I HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE to work my muscles and get buff! Yeahh!

So, I feel like I have more motivation to go to the gym with that new training under my belt now. Tomorrow I plan to go and test out the routine on my own; carrying around my little cheat sheet of numbers and machines like a dork- but hey! I'm finally doing this!

I feel like just doing all this has increased my self image and confidence already. Just knowing that I'm serious about it this time and actually taking positive steps toward my goal; even if I can't stay constant at the moment (I'm blaming the holidays).

But on a completely different note, yesterday I made my family's Christmas dinner: Beef Wellington, Gorgonzola stuffed pears, rolls, green bean casserole, and for dessert a Croquembouche. For doing it all myself, I felt I did... average. Things ended up going awry, but my mommy came and saved the day by fixing my burnt mess. It all ended up edible and actually better than expected!

My Croquembouche

Thank You to all of you for your support so far. This journey has had a rocky start because I had bad timing, what with all the holiday chaos, but I am glad you all read and I look forward to more progress and adventure!

Merry Belated Christmas and I hope everyone has a safe time celebrating the New Year!

-Rose

Christmas is coming! Christmas is coming!

On my way to the gym! Finally! More info on my last few days to come, promise. -Rose

Morning Weight in

AND--------

The weight is 195.

Wow, I'm losing weight already by just having a gym membership!

*note: my weight fluctuates like crazy, especially from morning to evening. I believe my first weigh in was of an evening. So I need to start paying attention to the time of day, and try to pick a time so I can stay consistent.

Hopefully, I can make it to a class today at the gym. I couldn't wake myself up for the 9:15am class I wanted, but there is Abs at 5 and another class at 5:30.


-Rose

Day 2: Starting a Change

Greetings Readers! (if I have any...)

Today was alright. Just alright. Family problems posed an obstacle for me to do anything radical with my day, BUT I did manage to go to the Sports and Fitness Center and donate some toys and as a gift for my contribution  I received a 3 week membership with a free trainer consultation! I am so excited! I have always wanted a gym membership while at home, and I finally got one! Just in time for the annual Holiday Binge (hopefully not this year though!)

So, I took a tour of the facility, got a schedule of all the group classes and scheduled my appointment with the trainer. I walked out feeling like I'm actually doing something for a change. Now... I just have to figure out their hours so I know how late I can manage to get myself over to work out.

My goal with this is to manage to make it over to the gym at least once a day (besides holidays) till I leave on the 6-7 of January. And while working out there, I want to learn the best way for me to reach my goal with appropriate exercises. I want to be doing something that will be working toward my goal not just wasting time.

I just realized I didn't weight myself... and the scale is in my parents' room... in which they are slumbering now. Oops. Well... I'm still getting the hang of this, give me a break!

Today I had a bowl of Cheerios, and I made a lovely dinner. bbq chicken wings, potato perogis, and bacon wrapped green beans. I felt I ate an appropriate and healthy portion in order to make a balanced meal. And since the meal was so savory, I scrounged around in the pantry and found some pizzelle cookies and some homemade apple jam my aunt made, and fixed myself a light dessert.

Tomorrow I am making a goal for myself to visit and work out for an hour at the gym tomorrow, and maybe even join a class!

*spoiler: I made my grocery list for holiday cooking today and I can't wait to share with you all what I'm making! ... It isn't healthy at all, but it is super fancy and I'm going to be impressed with myself if I can pull it off!

Till Tomorrow,

Rose.

It is meant to be!

Driving down the main road in town, I always pass the gym. I have always wanted a gym membership while home, like a month pass, but it just never seems to happen. But on their sign this evening, it said "Donate a toy for the County toy drive and receive a 3 week gift membership."

 I am home for 3 weeks...

=D

This is meant to be happening. Right Now. Let's do this.

December 18, 2011

My first day being conscious of this blog and this idea of a total lifestyle change.

I started off the day weighing myself. 198. Sigh. This is going to be a long journey.

But, I started off eating a cup of Cheerios cereal at 2 pm. Yeah... I woke up at 2 pm today. It was awesome.

Wrapped some presents, then watched some tele.

Football was on, and both the Chiefs and the Colts won. Stunning. First Colt Win of the season.

Had an apple, another bowl of cereal, and dinner was a mod-podge.

Dad didn't make dinner, so I grabbed some left over pasta and a slice of leftover pizza.

I could have done without the pizza, and about half the serving of pasta. But I'm noticing myself being extremely more conscious.

Yesterday before I started this Blog, I decided today would be lazy, so no exercise. But hey... that's nothing new.

Right now, I'm on break. Meaning I'm home in Indiana, with no gym and too much unhealthy food stocked in the kitchen pantry. I feel like being home is much worst than being at school. In my dorm room, the only snack I keep is Hummus and tortilla chips. Here, there are bags upon bags of chips, candy, etc. And very little fruits and veggies. At school, in the cafeteria, there is always a salad bar, plenty different fruits and veggies, and a huge variety. Being home just means I have to be creative and innovative.

Well, that's it for the first day.

Uh huh, Uh huh.

Rules

How I plan to make this work:

• Post at least once a day to keep track of myself, progress, mood, consumption, exercise, etc.
• Keep an accurate gauge on my weight.
• Keep a (as accurate as possible) food journal.
• Create and maintain a relaxed and fun blog atmosphere (not here to rant but to spread inspiration and laughs).
• Be bluntly honest. 

Current Weight: 198 lbs

Goal: 2 pounds per week. 

Short-Term Goal: 177 lbs (roughly 10 weeks = 2.5 months (beginning March)

Ultimate Goal: 155 lbs (roughly 22 weeks = 5.5 months (beginning June)

*Realize that I'm making this at 1:20am, ergo, I have the right to alter rules once published, tomorrow morning*

An Intro

Note: I am new to the blog realm. Bare with me as I smooth the kinks.

Greetings!

My name is Rose and I am a 19 year old Economics major from Indiana.
I love to act, ride my bike, talk with my best friends for hours, and (when I have one) watch my fish swim.

I have been overweight for as long as I can remember. Elementary, I was the chubby girl with the sweaters that were too tight during the winter, and I always acted like I wasn't twice the size as my peers. In middle school I started to lose some weight, probably due to growth spurts, and was somewhat normal size. Continued on through high school with some chub, having my weight flucuate like crazy. One year I was standard American overweight, another year I would consider myself fit. Toward the end of my senior year was the first time I considered myself attractive. The weight of high school was, literally, being lifted off my shoulders and that summer was my first fling (oh la la).

But then... College. DUH DUH. The freshman 15 got to me. Then the summer following my freshman year, I managed three jobs, one of which was extremely high stress (inner city summer school teaching aid), thus helping me gain 5 more pounds. And now here we are. A semester has gone by with me staying at my final weight of 197 lbs. On a good day, 194, and on a horrible day, over 200.

The day I got on the scale to read my weight was over 200 lbs was the lowest point of my life. So low, I believe it was the largest factor in my newly diagnosed depression. With that much weight gain over just a year, one is forced to shop. And everyone can agree that shopping because you can't fit into your old clothes is one of the worst feelings on Earth. Shopping around at all your favorite stores, now looking for one size larger. Ugh.

I remember when I was a flattering size 9. In the 8th grade...

I am now a size 16. SIZE 16!

Before when I was a size 14, I could get away with staying in the "normal" section. But with a size 16, I was suddenly, and shocking, moved into the "plus sizes." *Moan* Just typing that makes me gag. Ladies of larger size, I have the utmost respect for you. I really do. But the media has projected a heavy woman to be grotesque and frowned upon; and yes, I have indeed fallen into their trap. I am a brainwashed teenager with self-image issues.

Thus, here we are. On this adventure of me posting my lame ass progress on this lame ass journey to lose weight. Because I can't motivate myself on my own to do it. I need this blog.